our own created matrix
*our own created matrix*
*our own created matrix*
A couple of days ago, I was doing some shadow work at home, and the cards that came up were the 5 of Pentacles next to the 4 of Pentacles! I asked Spirit what did it mean? And it told me the following, you created money and financial issues in the past to keep you in a loop of victimization, lack and suffering. Am I crazy?! WHAT?!
I thought about that message and realized that it was a truth, you see throughout my working life, even when I did well financially in the past, I realized that I made poor financial decisions that always led me to get into debt or put myself into uncomfortable situations, and looking back on it they were my own decisions. So I always had some sort of financial issue going on, now I never looked at it from the perspective that Spirit gave me that night.
I realized that my financial issues and the way in which I related to Money created all of this distraction, preventing me from living the life that I always wanted and it robbed me of my joy, as I was always focusing on the lack there of or my financial obligations that were pressing at the time, so even if I had money coming in it was never enough!
So, I thought to myself, Spirit is onto something here, so the next morning, I came across a Tarot reading on YouTube for my sign Pisces that gave me the confirmation, as the reader told me that I needed to look into my finances and how to handle them better and that it was a huge distraction for my journey!
It also dawned on me that the same was for my health! So do we all do this? And the answer is YES! We all have some issue that we use to keep us trapped in a loop! To some it might be endlessly dating and not finding the right partner, for some it might be finances, health issues, family drama etc.
Unconsciously sometimes we get trapped into loops that are keeping us from living the life that we always wanted, that is because this loops are so sneaky! We go about life sometimes thinking that this is just the hand that life gave us! And, NO! it isn't, first and foremost always know that you have the power to change any circumstances and that we are not under any obligation to participate if we don't want to! You see, family drama was never my thing as I am not close to either side of the family, neither my Mom's or my Dad's, I was the outspoken black sheep, so from a very young age I wasn't really liked so I had a very firm boundary with my parents, I told them that I did not want to know any gossip or information about their families, I was not interested
When it came to relationships, I was always pretty happy being single for long periods after I came out of a relationship, so I never proactively looked for relationships, so no loop there. Until I realized this month that my biggest loop was staring back at me in a stand off much like a Spaghetti Western, I was looking at it at high noon waiting for it to draw its pistol, the sand was kicking up and there where tumble weeds. I was finally staring at my biggest loop , and it was staring back at me
I am now taking better care of my finances and taking full responsibility for the poor decision making that created some of the financial woes I have faced in the past and making the necessary reparations now, but at the same time, I am now creating more abundance that will lead me to the life that I always envisioned myself having by closely monitoring my expenses and creating new ways to heal any past financial issues, you see when we can clearly see our loops they no longer have any power over us, so now we are free to pursue the life that we always wanted it!
Tell me in the comment section what are your loops, and what steps are you taking to get out of them!
I love you all so much!
-Ariel Vega